Thursday, September 20, 2012

It's a...

I wish I could say that I am ecstatic as this note looks or even when I announced I was pregnant,
but I am a little sad. I haven't cried yet which I probably will do tonight in bed. 

Now for anyone who is struggling to conceive or carry a child to term
please don't hear a complaining mother. 

I know that we are very blessed to be pregnant with our third in 3 years.
I just wanted a girl. 

I kept telling myself that I was expecting a boy so I wouldn't be disappointed.
But clearly when my husband opened the envelope I was VERY disappointed. 
I started smiling very largely and laughing to keep from crying. 

I know I will love this boy.
I know I will adore him.
I love him now.

It is going to take me a few days to let go of hoping for a girl. 
I realize at this point statistically I am destained to being a boymom.

I probably won't have a girl as our fourth, if we decide to have four.

And that's OK. 
Its OK that I  am sad about letting go of the dreams.
Dreams of mother/daughter events.
Dreams of picking out a prom dress,
Dreams of my daughter in he wedding gown
Dreams of watching Robert walk her down the isle and
crying through their father/daughter dance. 

I wanted all those memories. 
But as of now that isn't the plan God has for us.
Jeremiah 29:11 
 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for peace and not evil, to give you a future and a hope. 

God has a plan for these 3 Pattenaude boys that I am not aware of and I have to trust that His plan is better than anything I could ever plan.

I will have new dreams.
For starters I will have the privilege of bawling my eyes out three time
during the mother/son dance!

Now to agree on a name!


  1. GOD knows what HE is doing-trust in that and enjoy your son so much! Many many many blessings to you!

  2. awww congrats on your baby boy <3

    don't feel bad about your reaction, I think that's normal and okay ;)

  3. Congratulations on boy #3, I am sorry its not a girl this time. Girls are fun, but are very mouthy, with lots of attitude that starts early . Thats one thing you will probably not ever have to deal with, with boys! Lol!


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